ABC baby you and me girl

Yea i never knew
me and you 
I never saw it coming
baby hold my hand
look into my eyes
I never saw it coming
I never planed on leaving
I never planned on flying
not like this not again

WHat did you do?
cause i didnt see this coming
what did you say?
Ill tell you i wanted to start running
cause hey this isnt what i expected
isnt what i thought
isnt what i wanted
but made me want you

What am i suppose to do?
doe ray me.

Things you never forget.

I dont remember the date i wrote this but it was a couple years ago..


Sacrament : something regarded as possessing a sacred character or mysterious significance.

Would it be wrong to say I miss you
Would it be out of place to forgive you…
When I was the one to let you fall
Oh how I wished it weren’t true
When they told me it was you
To let myself fall to the ground
I  hit the wall but I hadn’t noticed the bruise
Was nothing compared to what I had to lose.
I felt my heart fall apart.
I felt the duct tape you wrapped around it peal away
I felt the safety pines unhook
And Drop to my stomach
As it reverted back to these million different pieces.

Would it be wrong to say im sorry
Would it be wrong to tell you I think of it everyday
How I let you down in so many ways
I promise you you’re the most special friend I have ever had.
And now as I have watched these balls of fire in the sky
They blur in my eyes.
Reflect the color of lights in my tears
Cause darling I don’t celebrate the night I last heard your voice
I reach for the numbness I hope will come
But it avails me
How I loath who I was.
I loath what Iv done.
When you needed a friend the most
I was just as lost
And couldn’t see the man I loved was right in front of me
So I try now to let you go
But I still see your face wherever I go
I stilll think of you as I sleep next to him
I still dream of your scent and that voice in my head

I have come a long way from where I was
But this is still a haunting memory
I try to fix this in my mind.
But all I want is to hide.
I just want to feel your arms around me one last time
I remember when we stood in the driveway
I felt your pull and I knew you felt mine.
Cause I saw the look in your eyes
How they moved towards mine
Why didn’t I hug you? Now id give anything to have those moments back
Those brief hours you held me in your arms


and ill never forget you cared
and ill never forget you were there
these dreams feel so close
i just miss you more then you will ever know...

Things you never forget ... <3

First love

As each year goes by

I still see straight through those dark blue eyes

Hard and cold outside

But your iris shows deep warmth through the soul

You know i Know you better then anyone 

I've watched you go through so much...

and in the end I see the good

And in the end I'll stay by your side.

As each year goes by

I've tried to put a label on what we are

Was it love

was it lust

but it was always simply us

and even the pain we've caused each other

 will never taint what in the end will create

As each year goes by

We grow stronger

And they will never understand.

So why should i try to, when everything is falling into bliss.

Just know

THat no matter who passes through

It doesn't matter cause you belong to me

and i to you..

Sometimes you need to be sick to realize how healthy you truly are...

<3

"I was there when you worried,
I was there when you were sick,
I was there when you were positive
This wasn't happening.

 I was there when you were lonely
I was there when you were bored
I was there when you were feeling scared
And you were not sure what for.

 'Cause you got me if you want me 

 Yeah you got me and it's right where I should be. 

 Yeah you got me if you want me 

 Yeah you got me and it's right where I should be..."

"What a wicked Game to play..."

Deep in those chocolate eyes

I feel holds so many lies

But the shadows that have crept up behind 

whisper it's alright 

 And though he will never be mine

The smile he surfaces suffocates the fear

Unknowingly drys tears 

scars from all the years

Inadvertently causing me to care

Safety in the arms of my predator. 

My new weakness 

My greatest danger..

I dont play games 
when you play with me i rip you to sheds
fuck you 

"You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains.
You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines.
You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows.
This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too."- Bob Marley

As the Dust settles

She sits in wait
with the dust to settle
around her aching feet
its time to rest the running was to much
the hiding didn't hide much
even the endless scars.
these splinters stick deep
the running was just too much
Her heart ached,
cause no one felt the quake
time has come to let it down
let it be
let it leave
let go
be free.
But weary mind is yelling inside
do you let go of faith
of hope
as the dust settles..

Haunted Places

It is October 1st and I've been getting into the Halloween spirit for a couple weeks already...ok since august. I work at House Of Horrors and Haunted Catacombs in Cheektawaga, the biggest and best haunted attraction in western NY. I've been working there for six years and it is a strenuous but definitely rewarding job!
 http://www.houseofhorrorsbuffalo.com/ 
Come check us out, we guarantee to scare the hell out of ya =]
Anyways! I LOVE HALLOWEEN! it is my favorite holiday!
So I've been looking at images of old abandon/ haunted houses and there is something so beautiful about decaying places left for dead so to speak. The stories of spirits long gone from the houses and places. There is an odd calmness when walking into a house or through a place like this. I don't know why but I've always been interested in the other side and believe me, there is another side. so these are some images I wanted to share.

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    I think there is something artistic as well as creepy about these images and the way they were captured. I plan on walking up really early before day break sometime this month and going out to forest lawn cemetery to take pictures before the fog settles. I will be posting those as soon as they are printed. 

I'm not sure what else to do

My mind runs in circles
thinking
about you about us about the future without
It doesn't stop and im starting to feel like its not normal
not healthy
not happy
but everything i try to do just leads back
to thoughts
of you
and its scary to think i wont see you
for years and years on end
till im gone an we meet again.
The stress of it all has torn me up
i feel crazy and its way too much
I'm not sure what to do