Things you never forget.

I dont remember the date i wrote this but it was a couple years ago..


Sacrament : something regarded as possessing a sacred character or mysterious significance.

Would it be wrong to say I miss you
Would it be out of place to forgive you…
When I was the one to let you fall
Oh how I wished it weren’t true
When they told me it was you
To let myself fall to the ground
I  hit the wall but I hadn’t noticed the bruise
Was nothing compared to what I had to lose.
I felt my heart fall apart.
I felt the duct tape you wrapped around it peal away
I felt the safety pines unhook
And Drop to my stomach
As it reverted back to these million different pieces.

Would it be wrong to say im sorry
Would it be wrong to tell you I think of it everyday
How I let you down in so many ways
I promise you you’re the most special friend I have ever had.
And now as I have watched these balls of fire in the sky
They blur in my eyes.
Reflect the color of lights in my tears
Cause darling I don’t celebrate the night I last heard your voice
I reach for the numbness I hope will come
But it avails me
How I loath who I was.
I loath what Iv done.
When you needed a friend the most
I was just as lost
And couldn’t see the man I loved was right in front of me
So I try now to let you go
But I still see your face wherever I go
I stilll think of you as I sleep next to him
I still dream of your scent and that voice in my head

I have come a long way from where I was
But this is still a haunting memory
I try to fix this in my mind.
But all I want is to hide.
I just want to feel your arms around me one last time
I remember when we stood in the driveway
I felt your pull and I knew you felt mine.
Cause I saw the look in your eyes
How they moved towards mine
Why didn’t I hug you? Now id give anything to have those moments back
Those brief hours you held me in your arms


and ill never forget you cared
and ill never forget you were there
these dreams feel so close
i just miss you more then you will ever know...

Things you never forget ... <3